Ty's Big Boy Bed

Thanks to Aunt Tina and Uncle Kenny Ty got a big boy bed. He loves it. He fell out of it the other night and it scared me because we have tile through out the entire house. But he had rolled himself up in his blanket like a burrito so he didn't get hurt it just scared him.

I wanted to do the boy's room in Robots and I was so excited when we found his bedding at Target the other day. It was only $50.00 for the set. He Loves it whenever someone new comes to the house he has to show them his "cool big boy robot bed". The only problem is he comes and climbs in my bed with us some nights. He is so sneaky we don't even know he is there until morning.

Time to Play Catch Up

wow!!! so much has gone on since my last post. well about three weeks ago i moved away from utah to slidell Louisiana. It was a big scary move, but we made it and everything has been so great. I wouldn't have been able to handle the trip without my mother in law and sister in law they drove almost the whole way here in my car. I am so grateful for them.
I love love love Louisiana. We are only about 30 minutes from New Orleans. I love the warm weather it is so green and beautiful here. We have been getting a lot of rain lately but i think that is normal. it is so beautiful when it rains and its not cold, it feels like shower water. Our house is really cute. and i have it almost all put together. Irie has her own room and Ty and Hayes are sharing. But things are great and I am really happy.

Stress. In writing.

Will my life ever be the same? who knows. Joey left last Thursday to move to New Orleans, he found a job there. If everything works out alright I will be down there with him in a few months. I pray every night that he has finally grown up and we will be OK. So things are going good so far. He left on Thursday got there late Friday night and he started working on Monday. He calls me every night, and I miss him so much. This last week has been absolute hell. But I am sure there will be more of those to come.
It is so hard living here at my moms house. I always feel in the way. And I feel like the kids can't be kids. This house is just too small. You really can't do your own thing without getting in someones way. So usually I get off work and go to my friend Samantha's house to just hang out. her and her family have been so good to me. My kids can play and be loud and make a mess without me having to worry about who it will "offend" i guess is the right word. Sometimes i stay over there a little too late but Samantha and I get to talking and I think that it will take a nuclear bomb going off to shut us up. She will talk to me about anything no matter what it is. Sometimes I just really need that.
Our Easter was good, it was hard not having Joey here with us. But I got through it. Our anniversary is coming up on the 24th and I am scared about being alone for it. He has already missed so much of the kids funny stuff in the last week I hate for him to miss so much more. Hayes starting grabbing his feet and really reaching for stuff. He is growing so fast. Time is just flying by. I miss my life. I wonder why things ever fell apart.

Too Cute!

Hayes is such a sweet little boy. He just looks so thoughtful in this picture that I had to share it. I can't believe that he is already 4 monthes old. Time just goes by so fast.

Thank You

Thank you Nick and Meri for your comments. It is nice to know that I am loved. It may not seem like much to type a few words to make some one feel better but they hit me hard. I am so glad to have people in my life that take the time to tell me how much they love me. I need you both in my life so much. Thank you for being my sisters and my friends. And know that even though at the moment my life is crazy and hectic I will always be there for each ot you. Love ya.
Love,
Lacey

Stupid Me.

Do you ever get the feeling that nothing is ever going to go right in your life again? I am sure everyone does. This whole past year has been a literal hell for me (with a few high points). I had to leave my husband because he lacked the Love or motivation or something and just wouldn't work. Stupid me. I thought he would come running back as fast as he could scrambling to get our lives back together. Stupid me. He is taking his time. He lives somewhere else and I live with my mother. Stupid me. He gets to play Dad whenever he wants and gets to go home to enjoy not having to worry about four other people while I am a full time mom and am working full time to boot just to afford to live at my moms house. Stupid me. I had to buy diapers with quarters the other day. Stupid me. I am worth more than that. I know I am. But how do I make the Love of my life Love me back? Stupid me. There were times when we were together that I wasn't sure where we were going to be the next day, and I never want to go through that again. Why does Love make us so stupid? Why do I still care about him? Why do I still want to be with him? Why can't I just let it go and start over? Because of Love? Stupid Stupid Love? Well then I HATE Love. It makes me Stupid. Stupid me. And Then .................................................................................... I Love, Love. I Love, Loving my family, my friends, my wonderful Loving children. I Love how they Love me. I Love seeing old friends with their new children, and somewhere inside me even though I don't know them a tiny piece of me Loves them. I think I have taken Love and turned it into my enemy. I have always loved to freely, too whole heartedly and it has done nothing but slap me in the face and beat me down and leave me for dead. I wish my heart could stop loving, so no one or nothing could destroy me. I am beginning to sound like a crazy person. But all of you who are reading this that know me, know that I am crazy. So basically this whole blog tonight is to state the fact that I Love and Hate Love and I am crazy. Done, nuff said. Goodnight.

Hayes Joseph Greco

Well as soon as my doctor said it was safe for me to have the baby, all my preterm labor stopped. typical. But Hayes Joseph Greco finially came on November 8th 2008 at 4:38 in the morning. He weighed 7 lbs 2 oz and was 19 inches long. He has so much hair! I love it.

He will be 4 weeks old tomorrow. I can't believe how fast time has gone. He has already outgrown some clothes. But he is the best babyt although he is a little spoiled. Ty Loves him so much. Every morning he asks about his baby "bruver" and then talks about how cute he is. Irelyn thought he was a doll at first and now she could just care less.